"If at first you don't succeed,

... dust yourself off and try again."

Well, today I received an e-mail stating that I'm not eligible to even apply to this nursing program that I've been trying to get into. It's really upsetting, and I feel very disappointed in myself. I know that I shouldn't bring myself down, but what most don't understand is that lately things with school have been screwing me over. I graduated high school a year early which came with highs and lows. The lows being me not participating in senior festivities because I don't have close friends that are seniors, no senior ad, no senior picture in the yearbook (all because the background was a shade lighter than it needed to be), not being able to graduate with my best friend, not being able to go straight into a four-year college, and not being able to enjoy my senior year because I had to graduate early. The only positive thing from this is getting a head start into college, but now even that has been taken away from me.

I had to have a certain score in order for me to place into a required math to get into the nursing program. The first time I took it I was three points away, and the second time I was only ONE point away. Who knew that one little point could mean so much? Well, it did. And it made me have a terrible night. I can't stop blaming myself. I should have tried harder, although I know deep in my heart I gave it all I got. This means so much to me. And I know that if I don't give up, it will come to me. I just need patience, and I'm praying that God will guide me through this. So now I have to take a math class before I can take the higher level of math, which sets me back from taking chemistry. I just have to work hard and push myself. I know I can do it, but it's just upsetting that one little point pretty much pushed my goal further away from me.

So now the question is where do I go from here? I can only go past this and hope for a better tomorrow. My dad said that I need to use this as my motivation to get through the classes and help me work harder in the future. So now I'm about to look up other nursing programs in California and Hawaii because by the time I'm done with my first year here in college we'll be moving. Hopefully, the pre-requisites at the other colleges won't be so different than the ones I'm taking now. I'm not going to give up. I just have to keep praying and keep my dream alive. I know that one day I will be a nurse, and whether or not that day comes sooner or later... I'll be ready.

<3Jaimie

As we go on, we remember...

On June 11th 2009, I graduated from Swansboro High School. I wasn't nervous until I got closer to the stage. That's when it actually hit me that I was graduating high school. I can't believe it! And it's crazier because I graduated a year early. Once I came out of the lobby after picking up my diploma, I was rushing to find my family. Then I saw them standing there with leis. I couldn't be any happier. I started crying as I was hugging everyone. Special moments mean a lot more when you're surrounded by people that you love and people that love you. I'm VERY thankful that my aunts, cousins, great-grandpa, and grandma were here. And that people that weren't able to be at my graduation had the opportunity to see it live on the internet. Everyone keeps asking me how I feel, and to be honest I don't really know. I guess once college starts up, then maybe I'll start missing high school. But until then, I'm glad I'm outta that hell hole.





The next day we had my graduation cookout, and I invited some of my good friends over to enjoy some amazing Filipino food! It wasn't anything big, but it means a lot to me that my family and friends came together to celebrate me graduating from high school. And they also surprised me with a cake, and then my dad surprised me by singing "Happy Graduation" in the "Happy Birthday" tune haha. Then things got a little outta hand with the cake. If you know my family and what they do with cake, then I'm sure you know what I'm gonna say next. My grandma tried to be sneaky at smear some icing on my face, so I grabbed a huge piece and chased her. I didn't get her, but I got my mom and she got me good. Then my friends started getting into it once my family went inside... I guess they were being shy or something haha. Anyways to wrap things up graduating is definitely one of the obstacles in my life that I have achieved, and I'm proud of myself for getting through it. I feel that I've grown up a lot these past few years, and that I'm definitely ready to take on whatever else is waiting to challenge me in the future.


<3Jaimie

P.S. I'M GOING TO HAWAII THIS SUMMER!!!!

THE BIG DAY

Well everyone, today's the day. The day I no longer can be called a high school student:) I'm very thankful to have my family here to support me, and family around the world supporting me. I wish everyone could be here to see me graduate! But it's okay, I'll post a lot of pictures for everyone to see. Alrighty, just wanted to post a quickie! If you've received a graduation announcement then this picture might seem familiar to you haha. CLASS OF '09!

<3JaimieLeeAquino

TEAM JACOB?!?!?

Okay, I'm sure you have seen the trailer to 'New Moon' (and if you haven't, you NEED to get on that), and I honestly think that it's going to be better than the first one! And one of the reasons being TAYLOR LAUTNER (my new celeb crush who is 17) doesn't have that ugly wig on in this sequel, and he buffed up for this film. I'm also excited to see how they're going to keep Edward physically in the movie, since he wasn't there in the book. New Moon wasn't my favorite book only because Edward wasn't in it, and Bella was pretty much betraying him. I think that once I see this movie, it'll definitely change my mind. It almost did when I saw the trailer. The only bad part about the trailer was seeing what they made the werewolf look like... it looked like a puppy haha. Anyways, when I saw Jacob in the trailer my heart dropped.
I think I'm in love with a werewolf(;

<3Jaimie Lautner

P.S. If I do end up going for Team Jacob after I see this movie, you can blame my teenage girl hormones(: